Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Writing Memories

The topic for the CW Blog Chain this month is 'MEMORY' and I thought, since this is primarily a writing blog and I'm a writer, that I'd talk about my early writing memories.

I think I've always been a story teller. I have vivid memories as a young child - probably no more than six - where I'd dream up interesting characters, put them in situations of conflict, and then find a way to solve their dilemmas so that everyone could live happily ever after. I've always loved to draw, so often these stories became sketches and I still have several old scrapbooks full of sketches that I saved.

I wrote my first play when I was in Grade Four. I had read a book called Ghosts Don't Eat Sausages and I remember loving it so much that I wanted to write a play about it. After I wrote the play I convinced several of my classmates that we should act it out at recess time. This was in the day when there were no photocopiers, so I had to rewrite everyone's parts by hand. Talk about dedication! I was the director and we proceeded to 'rehearse' for several recesses. I'm not sure what I thought would come of it, but our teacher happened to notice our activities and when she found out what we were doing, she scheduled a performance date and we presented the play to the entire school. When I think about it now, she must have had a lot of confidence in us, because I don't remember much interference on her part. The play got a whole page in the yearbook that year, with me listed as the playwright and director. I think that early 'success' gave me confidence as a writer.

Unfortunately, my confidence waned when I got to junior high. I wrote a long and elaborate story as an English assignment which, when I think about it now, was actually pretty amazing. It was about a teen girl who was going to visit her father in Europe, and unknown to her, she actually had royal blood lines and would soon be thrust upon the throne of a tiny kingdom. In retrospect, it was very much a "Princess Diaries' type of story (long before that movie ever came out) and I got an A. I did a ton of research for it and loved writing it, but then my teacher wanted me to read it to the class and I refused. It turned into an altercation and I got in trouble. I'm not sure why I was so adamant about NOT reading it to the class. I guess the mind (and hormones) of a thirteen year old are a mystery that doesn't always make sense.

Fortunately, I grew out of that phase and went on to do well at creative writing for the remainder of my school years. My Grade 12 English teacher suggested I go to a writing camp after graduation, but I didn't have the funds or the nerve at the time. (Some of that old fear was resurfacing. What if everyone else was better at writing than I was?) To some degree I suppose we writers still suffer from these same insecurities. I was very reluctant to let anyone read my early manuscripts and when I did finally let go, I was raked over the coals by rejection and criticism. However, I've since learned that both of these are actually your friends. You must embrace the 'tough critique' in order to become a better writer, and not everyone will love everything you've written. That's just a fact.

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21 comments:

  1. Thanks for giving us insights into your early writing. It is amazing that you were a writer/director at so young an age - and you got encouragement to do so!

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  2. I'm so glad you kept writing despite earlier trepidation (and some lingering doubts). I too was a young writer. It's interesting how our passions stay with us.

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  3. This was fun looking inside your head, Tracy! I loved hearing about your increased--waning--increased confidence flow over the years. Obviously you were born to write. And the world is grateful!

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  4. That is interesting that you found this gift early in life.

    lol... that's too funny about you at age 13, no one wants to "stand out in the crowd" at that age!!!

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  5. Thanks for stopping by - all three Chris's and Carol. :) I think we are hardwired with many of our passions in place. (ie: writing for instance) NOT pursuing our passions makes us 'testy'; following them gives us renewed energy.

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  6. There is something tremendously vulnerable about creating a work and then sharing it with others. We write, not just for ourselves, but to express ideas---and for that we need an audience. But an audience could be critical, or disagree. A reader could disapprove or even argue. That's downright scary. There are some days I think quitting and hiding away in a private hole somewhere would be make life much more comfy. And yet, there is the compulsion to write. So, we just have to put on the thickest skin we can and do it! Thanks for doing just that!

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  7. Thanks Tracy for the trip through some of your writing memories. The fourth grade teacher who encouraged you did well - I don't think mine would have.

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  8. Yeah, its interesting that the one memory involving a teacher was so positive and the other turned out to be negative - even though I think she was trying to encourage me in her own way...

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  9. As I was reading your story, it sounded strangely familiar. I always have a story running through my head, wrote plays and performed them for family, but my intense stories, those were mine alone - maybe too close to my heart. Great memories - keep up the pursuit. Peace and Blessings

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  10. lol Terrie - its like we walk around with a movie playing in our head all the time!

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  11. I always find it very interesting the paths writers take in their careers. I, also, had an English teacher who encouraged me. I often wonder what happened to her and what she'd think today about my writing. Great post.

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  12. Tracy, this was enjoyable to read. You certainly are hardwired to write. I'll have to share your story with my oldest daughter, who is a 4th grade teacher. :)

    Recently, a colleague and I had to give constructive criticism to an aspiring-writer friend who thinks her first book will be an immediate best seller and will be made into a Disney movie. For this reason, she is rushing to self publish a manuscript which needs LOADS of work! It broke our hearts to be the ones to gently show her the weaknesses and the glaring faults. However, we remind each other of Proverbs 27:6, "Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but deceitful are the kisses of an enemy."

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  13. memories are special
    the past shapes the future

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  14. Sandi, the verse you shared is EXACTLY the right one in these situations.

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  15. Thanks for the insights.

    I think all of us who have the writer's sensibility start out on it at around that age...

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  16. And look where you're at now, girl! Woot! Woot!

    I so enjoyed getting to know more about you through this post. May God continue to bless the works of your hands, sister.

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  17. Tracy, your early memories of writing remind me of my own ~ it's nice to know that we're sisters in the faith as well as the passion for words.

    And when are we going to get to read that 'Princess Diaries'-esque story?! I am intrigued!

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  18. That story hit the trash bin back in the seventies I'm afraid, Nona!

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  19. I enjoyed reading your writing journey memories, Tracy. They recalled to mind my own journey - my first publication (a poem in our church newsletter when I was in third or fourth grade); a poetry contest where my sad, romantic verse lost to a classmate's rhymes about germs on pachyderms; my embarrassment when a high school English teacher insisted a story I'd written be read aloud to the class; my first rejection letter (a magazine query for a poem).

    I guess we all have those "paying our dues" stories. Thanks for sharing yours. :)

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  20. Thanks for sharing your writing memories. I enjoyed this post. Great!

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